"No matter how much I love you, You're never gonna love me" and thats how it started. I didnt know it but thats what I needed to tell myself, to say out loud to realize how true those words were. Lately I've been energized to write poems again, but it was not out of creativity but more out of pain, it was the need to speak those words out loud in hopes that the one person I wanted to talk to the most would listen. But it wasnt til I uttered those words yesterday morning that I realize how true they were, and now Im Pissed! Why? well more than anything its anger towards myself. Anger, for the fact that I let this go on for so long. I cant say that I have been in love so many times, but this last time was the closest I've gotten in a long time, and to be honest it made me act like a damn fool. this situation made forget that you cant ever make someone feel a certain way, that you cant ever make someone love you. If they dont see it, well its really not my fault. I am a great catch and I hate the fact that for a while I let this person think I wasnt. In the last two days was that by just stepping away I realized just where I stood and how it was time to let go. Letting go is never easy and it hurts like a bitch but you have to do it, if the situation is no good for you. Lesson Learned! again! LOL! Well in true my life is very dramatic kinda way, today I got up and there was only one song I wanted to hear and that was Sara Bareilles' Between the Lines. Didnt know why I knew this was the song I needed to listen to this morning but once I let it play and just listen to the lyrics, it was exactly what I needed to hear. So I give thanks to the universe cause I think this was the way it was letting me know that I'm back on the right path. :)





New addition to this is samples of my writing:

FOOL
Once again I cannot sleep
Thoughts of a love that was never meant to be mine
Gave my heart to a fool
who left me here on bended knee

Stuck in the past with a love that has long since gone
reliving all the happy memories
Not out of love but fear of not finding them again
Oh how foolish he is not to see
How I 'm willing to give him all of me

The days go on
The nights are so long
Endless thoughts of what will never be mine

Oh fool how blind you are not see
That I am standing here in front of you
With my heart on my sleeve

But alas you are not the only fool
As love has also made a fool out of me
A fool so blind that I couldn't see
That you will never love me

By Luis E. Gonzalez
January 07, 2011


And now for some inspirational quotes from peeps I follow on twitter:

"Love is never to be withheld. Love, if complete, is always expressed, always shared"

"When you truly trust yourself you'll find that all the answers you've been looking for are within."

-TheDailyLove


And so for now this is it...

Later Days